I have spent the last 12 months being quiet. Why? Because in January, 2017, I retired. When I was younger, I never thought I would actually retire … quit what I was doing. I couldn’t imagine it.
During my corporate days, the idea of retiring was so far removed from my everyday life that I never really contemplated it. Once I left behind the stresses of that world and focused on the use of my ‘gifts’ to help others, I couldn’t imagine ever turning anyone away. I am still of the belief that if you have a ‘gift’ (and I believe we all have one), it is given to you to give to others. For example, my healing and seeing abilities aren’t for me … they are for me to help others. So, regardless of what your ‘gift’ is … if you are a natural teacher, engineer, good with numbers, good with people, cook, etc. … the purpose is for you to use it to help/teach/mentor others.
So, now I am retired…and loving it. It has taken me a whole year to reach a point of accepting what makes me happy. Because I believe the above, it has been a struggle internally for me to say ‘no’ to people seeking help. Of course, it was easier to say no to the idea of taking on a new client. Like each of you, I will always possess my ‘gifts’. And, I will use them to help in any crisis that arises…especially for those I have worked with in the past.
One thing I have learned this past year about myself is that I needed to separate myself from the familiar day to day activities. I had to stop answering the phone every time someone called and jumping to fix the situation. I remembered what it was like before cell phones; before I let the phone invade my private life. In the corporate world I became the slave to it; tethered to it 24/7. Today I often forget to carry it, or worse, charge it.
I learned to listen and feel what was truly going on inside of me; finding the quiet voice that has always steered me in the right direction. I slowed down; not my activities or mind, but began living the hours of my days instead of filling them with meaningless busyness. The time I spend with people is more precious because it is time I have chosen to spend with them; not just fitting them in between busy schedules.
I have found deeper meaning in my relationships, along with a deeper, if not more profound, connection. I have witnessed many happy and tragic events occur in peoples lives. I have walked with many through their transitions; whether the transition was in their relationships, careers, financial freedom or devastation, losses or death. But the sense of being fully present is more acute today than it had been in the past. Again, perhaps its because I am hearing that quiet voice and connected to the energy of all life.
I have always thought of myself as a quiet, reflective person. I ‘hear’ the voices. I ‘see’ what has been and what could be. I live between the spaces. I walk in peace and calm, with hope and love for all.